Nightmare

I've been plagued by a recurring nightmare since I broke up with my boyfriend. One of those dreams that wakes me up and because I'm so upset I find it nearly impossible to go back to sleep. In fact, I just got out of bed Friday morning (2:30 AM) and worked because it was better than trying to relax and talk myself out of freaking out.


In the dream I know someone is in my living room, just sitting there. I don't know how he got in and I don't know why. I don't feel safe though I don't feel like he's going to attack me or hurt me but he IS in my house and I'm asleep. In the dream I know he is a neighbor but when I'm awake I know I've never seen this person before and definitely not in my apartment building.


When I am finally able to wake myself up and listen in the dark, I can tell that no one is here (I've gotten up and checked many times), I lie in bed crying because I'm alone in my bed, alone and scared, and I want my boyfriend back...I want him to be sleeping next to me so I can roll over and be held, protected, safe. The tears end up coming faster and harder missing him in my bed, in my life!


Is my subconscious trying to tell me something? If my subconscious is trying to tell me that I felt safe and protected as part of a couple then it can stop that dream because I know that about me, about that relationship. If my subconscious is trying to tell me something else then it might want to try another dream because this one only makes me miss him and all we won't have together.