Regret is a terrible emotion, a terrible place to be. When I make a choice to do something or say something, I am not thinking "I sure hope this makes my life more difficult" or "I hope that once I say this I'll feel badly about myself." Unfortunately I do say things or do things that I wish I could take back. I would love a rewind button. I'd go back and withdraw whatever it is that I did or said that has brought me to the place where I start to think about regret...
Right now, I want to rewind to 11:55 AM. I want to stand beside myself and say, "Bonnie, in 15 minutes what you're feeling will pass so be strong for a little while longer. Hang on, endure, persist. You won't be able to take it back and you'll spend hours worrying about it. So please don't." Would I listen to me or would I have some flippant remark about how I know best?
Is it arrogance that leads to the greatest regrets in life? Possibly, at least in my experience. And, now, arrogance is gone. Regret is left in its place and regret tastes like ash. I am sorry, more sorry than I can express.
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